Preparations

Everything is up in the air right now. I don't know where I stand or what will happen next. As a result I feel a bit vulnerable. I know I'm taking a very big chance on this but its a chance worth taking. The only problem is there is a 50 - 50 chance of losing. Knowing this I've decided to prepare myself. I am preparing myself for the worst. I know there is a chance that tomorrow will bring that loss I don't really want to face. But I have to be ready for that probable outcome. I have to prepare my ears to hear the words I may not want to hear. My mind needs to be prepared to understand the words my ears will receive. My heart is going through preparations to be strong enough to withstand the sting of the words my mind will comprehend. And my soul, well my soul is steadfast and focused on God, in case all those preparations are unsuccessful. So, I guess now I'm prepared.

But honestly, I'm hoping my preparation is in vain and the odds are in my favor. I guess only time will tell.