I want to run around and tell everyone how happy I am. How blessed I am to have you in my life. But in fear of having my happiness ruined by people who feed off of destroying the joy of others, I must hide how I feel. It's tough since I'm an affectionate person who believes in showing my feelings no matter who is watching. And its awkward not knowing how to act or what to say in front of other people. But if it will keep the negative away from what we have, I can live with the awkwardness.

Sorry I just had a random thought in the middle of the night.