Damn I miss you!

I realize I have yet to devote a blog entry about you, my heart, my love. Every time I have begun to write about you I couldn't get the words together. I couldn't quite figure out what I wanted to say. How could I possibly put into words how I feel. I don't know how to explain the new outlook on love you've given me. Except to say, what we have was put together by God himself. All circumstances surrounding us being together should've made it impossible for this to work. But by the grace of God it does. And I know this thing we have is of God's work because when I pray for us I never ask for exactly what I want. I don't pray for the forever I want in my heart. I don't even pray for us to be together tomorrow. All I ask is for is His will to be done in our relationship. And He continues to move obstacles out of our way. And in the meantime our love grows stronger daily. You love me in a way that I've never been loved. You love me, faults and all. Despite the person I am, you love me. Aside from God and family, you are the first to show me true agape, unconditional, love. And no matter what our outcome maybe, whether we make it to that hill in 2007 or the lord sees fit for us to be apart, you've taught me the best lesson any man has ever taught me, Love is real!

I LOVE YOU C.A.L.

I'm trying to be patient and wait on the lord but at times it is just soo tough. My heart yearns for one thing but my soul is telling me its not time yet. Its a constant struggle. I want to be obedient and do what I know is right. But its so tough when the wrong road seems so much easier. But I'm not ready to give up yet. My eternal joy is right around the corner. I've been blessed all my life and I know I will continue to be blessed. Since I've overcome my struggles thus far I know I can handle what is yet to come. And this will be worth it! “For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.” Ephesians 6:12

thats how u feel?

So here I am tryin to be genuine. I'm tryin to be a friend. And you smile in my face and bad talk me behind my back? So thats how you feel? While I'm thinking we're finally truly becoming friends you're actually makin me out to be a pest. And the worst part is I find out how you feel when I tried to stand up for you. I sure looked like a fool standing up for someone who "talks bad about me when I'm not around". I guess I shouldn't have made the effort yet again. Maybe I should leave you to your phony superficial friends. I was stupid for running behind you before, but trust, I won't do it anymore. Since my attempt at friendship is being met with contempt, I will no longer try. I'll keep my concern for those who appreciate it. And yes, this one is written to YOU!

Still waiting. I love you.