to you

You know who you are, my blog's #1 fan. lol. that last one wasn't for you. funny how it takes a misunderstood message for you to tell your true feelings. i'm sure you will tell me later some of those things weren't meant for me, and who knows maybe those feelings weren't for me either. but anyway, i wasn't telling you good bye forever. that message was for someone who i have no intentions of ever speaking to again. you on the other hand, i intend to keep as a friend. so although i'll never really know what part of your message was for me, and i won't jump to conclusions, know that my attempts at friendship weren't false. I'm still genuinely here.

but, now that i think about it some of those things in my blog can apply to you. i did love you (although i never told you in fear of the rejection you always showed me), and you will always be in my heart. and i do wish that you find your joy, like i've always told you, i'd rather you be happy without me than unhappy with me. but just remember, i'm here in my own way.